You can have the life you want. You just have to start somewhere. Your dreams are never too big if your will trumps any limitations. There's a difference between you want to be successful and you will be successful. The difference is what you are doing to achieve your goal. If what you're doing isn't working then it is up to you to try something new. Don't forget that insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly and expecting a different result. Stay sane by taking whatever path gets you to your destination. You will make it if you keep trying.