The odds are currently stacked against you. You can't travel or engage in activities the way you're used to. You don't even have the opportunity to bear your face and breathe as freely as you please. The circumstances are spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically draining. Maybe you haven't exercised or moved your body extensively in ages. You may be socially inept as a result of quarantine. There's also the likelihood that you're experiencing symptoms of depression due to your overwhelming circumstances. The layers of hardships you are facing must be peeled. Utilize any available resources that may improve your outlook and environment.
A fairly significant amount of time has passed, so you mustn't pity yourself anymore. The failure to surpass the obstacles in your path become inexcusable over time. Now is when you should be overcoming life's struggles and making the best of what life has to offer. Do not allow yourself to be held back any longer.