Take the break you desperately need. Everyday is not meant to be a struggle. At a certain point, enough is enough. While you are still alive and bordering un-well, take control of your circumstances. Avoid overexertion and mental breakdowns by booking your time away. That can be in the form of five minutes locked in the bathroom at work, peacefully sitting alone in the car, or traveling far away from your reality. Regardless what method of recovery you select, make sure to soak it all in. Accept that this moment is entirely for you, it is well-deserved, it is a necessity, and you shall return in full force.